The past always follows you around.
So many times in my life I've looked at someone, and said, “Well, thats the last I'm gonna see of that person”.
Never worked. They keep coming back to my life. Sometimes in the form of a pleasant evening spent remembering our stupid, old selves and mistakes and sometimes like a blast from the past, in a way most unexpected and most unpleasant. But the truth remains- The past always follows you round.
So you take all the pain and pack those memories up in small boxes and keep them high on the dusty shelves, to be forgotten.
And you spend nights trying to figure out what went wrong.
And you sit up on the terrace on a cold night and tell yourself your eyes are stinging from the cold, not tears.
And you remember again, the tunes of your favourite song when you were 12 years old.
And you tell yourself to move on and find new things to make you happy.
And you learn to tell yourself that things have changed and you say it till you start believing it.
And then the visitor from the past. And it all comes crashing back.
Sometimes, a most amusing story to hold on to.
And sometimes you realize the pain was never gone.
It's all a ploy. It's life's way of reminding you of the lessons you've learnt.
Or maybe not.
Maybe its one more of those things that I keep telling myself so I start believing it.
Whichever way, there's no running away.